c'est la vie.

MzJOWEE

UPDATES: PICTURES FOR : JARED'S BDAY/JANINE'S DEBUT/THANKSGIVING/YARDHOUSE/ANA's BDAY uploaded in the gallery

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed
to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken
probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break
hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll
fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an
old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll
eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh
too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty
seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

it's been 6 days since I last blogged, 5 days since i've been livid, 4 days since i've becomed numb, 3 days since i've become thankful, 2 days since i've started to accept, and 1 day since i've let go. The phrase "time heals all wounds" holds true for all factors that's happened to me in the past week -- and i've never been happier for myself in a long time. Thanksgiving weekend was the mother of all thanksgiving's given that despite my hostility I was able to spend time with the one's I loved the most.

To get away from everything, Wednesday night the old omnis crew went out to Yardhouse for some drinks and I was beyond cross-faded. Marie and her brother smoked me out at a friends house and from then on, everything became really hazy hahaha. When we arrived at yardhouse we bought a bunch of drinks, and i got screwed over by this awful awful drink called The Hurricane. That shit had gin, orange juice, rasberry juice, 151 -- anything and every alcohol you could have imagined. YUCK! Quotes of the night " the cheaps are drink there" & " I can't BELIEVE I smoked medical weed!" HAHAHA

DAMN! look at those titties

Thanksgiving day was really awesome because I got to spend time with the fambam. Early morning I went to work out and the Vagina's cooked some awesome breakfast, we feasted on pancakes, longganisa, and fried rice. YUM! hahah. Thanksgiving was at my house this year and everyone brought sooooo much food, I wasn't able to actually eat turkey because I was more fixated on the clams and halibut ( i know right, seafood? wtf?) but it was awesome. The whole family drank wine ( except the kiddies of course) watched Tropic Thunder and played ROCKBAND! I LOVE ROCKBAND! i would buy an XBOX 360 just to have rockband

tatay and his beautiful granddaughters

Friday morning I gave in to the black friday-ness and I was literally murdered, wallet murdered I mean. I was really hell bent in buying really cheap movies so I bought a bunch of cartoons like madagascar and sappy movies like PS I love you and Sex and the City. If you know me, my main weaknesses are SHOES, BOOTS most especially and this store had all their shoes 50% off! I gave in and bought 2 pairs of boots and purple pumps for 70 bucks! AGHHHHH i need to get in control of my weaknesses hahaah. At night the Vagina's + Greg went to Janine's Debut and even if we didn't have ANY alcohol at all, I had the best freakin' time. Janine looked beautiful, Ana and I sang Boyz II men from a little contest and we danced to todo- todo and get hyphy songs... HAHA good times

SEXY!

Saturday morning i did... NOTHING! it was GREAT! At night, a grip of us headed to Downtown fullerton to walk around the bars and celebrate Jared's birthday at Tuscany's. He was beyond fucked up, ruined 3 of gilberts drinks, almost puked in a pitcher and almost drank a pitcher of miscellaneous drinks inside it. hahahha. He called me the next morning and told me while his fraternity brothers were walking him inside his house he started puking on his dad's car. HAHAHAH! It would have been classic to see Uncle Ferdie's face. HAHAHH!

HAHAHA, look at this drunk ass fool

Sunday morning was spent with me having a huge ass argument on the phone ( when will boys NOT men stop giving me grief and agony?! WTF? hahaha) After what may have seemed like countless hours of fighting on the damn phone, Sunday morning/afternoon consisted of me watching Jurassic Park I AND II on TV. God, I felt so lazy. Around 6 we picked up RAMBO, AWW I MISSED HIM! and Michaele visited us at the apartment. HAHA, she was telling us about her little misadventures -- but i'm extremely happy for her that shes happy you bitch. ahaha jk! After that the four of us rolled to Pasadena, got our sushi fix at Wockano's and joined Jay and Jake at the bars. We didn't stay for too long because it was already midnight, and plus I had work the next morning whomp whomp. They were trying to force me to drink ( ON A SUNDAY?!?!) but I promise I'll make it up to you guys next time!! -- anyday but a sunday, PLEASE! LOL ( as michaele would do: sunday? what? :: does the sign of the cross:: HAHAHHA)

I'm so excited for this upcoming week/weekend!!! :

• 120308: Mommy's Birthday!
• 120408: Gilbert Birthday! - Barney's Beanery!
• 120508-120708: VEGAS, BABY!
• 121008 : JENNA'S BDAY
  
• 121308-121408: BIG BEAR
• 121908:Christmas party @ Vapt's
• 122508: CHRISTMAS!
• 122708 : JOY's BDAY! : ( we're going to FUCK YOU UP HHAHA)
  
• 122808: HEATHER'S BDAY!
• 123108: JESYLEE's BDAY! & NYE party @ VApt's or Jane's
• 10109: NEW YEARS! VEGAS BABY!

see? i told you it was going to be long...

until next time...

xx.

MzJOWEE

"Advice is what you look for when you already know the answer but wish you didn't."

All yesterday night we were looking for Rambo, still no sign of him . After that the roomies enjoyed an evening alone watching Big Bang, How I met your mother and Heroes. While we were online looking at halloween costumes ( ask me, I don't know why) I was surfing around the internet and I witnessed something that ripped me apart. After that incident, I was in desperate need of some sleep -- just so the pain can go away. While I was lying in bed, Ana came in and asked me if I wanted to talk and even though I said I was fine, she sensed that I needed to vent so she came in and we chatted for the longest time. I enjoyed our girl talk, too bad Anne wasn't there but she was with her boyfriend and i'm sure she doesn't have any boy issues right now LOL.

There are things in our lives that we're scared to admit, either because of the idea of failure or resentment. For the longest time I was scared to confess how much certain people and issues bugged me, and even though it was clawing on my skin, I put my game face on and put it in the back of my mind. There's only so much you can handle by not being true to yourself, and last night was my boiling point. I thought this was something I can handle because if you don't try it will get you nowhere right? Last night I realized it's worth it to try but always make sure the person that your trying for is worth it. 

I'm in a state of abyss and I'm just so irate with myself that I let things get this way. You can always blame the other person for your state of agony, but in reality the only person you can blame is yourself. YOU let this happen, YOU let them in, YOU let them take over you. 

Each one of us will experience a time in our lives where we encounter a poison. At first you think it's good for you, it manifests you, it completes you. Then all of a sudden, you find yourself always changing and adapting -- you don't know why, you just are. After that, you soon realize and you ask yourself: "HOW THE FUCK did I get to this point?" Upon grasping that question you try to pick up the pieces that you have left, gather your thoughts and NOW your faced with two different path's: The path where you keep yourself in the darkness because you think that maybe somehow, sometime, things will get better and you will have everything that you wanted with A LITTLE BIT of sacrifice. OR you can take the road less traveled, where you pick up your pieces, leave and get rid of the poison.

Ladies (and to whoever else reads this), due to the fact that I still believe in myself, I still know what's best for me, I still know I deserve EVERYTHING that I want/need and I will not accept myself to settle, I end it with this:  I just got rid of my poison. So to you, congratuFUCKINGlations, you just lost me.

until next time...

xx.

MzJOWEE

I am currently in my apartment looking at halloween costumes with the roomies.

congratufuckinglations, you just lost me.

xx.

MzJOWEE

"Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away."

Not much to say about this weekend, except that it had its Highs, Ok's, Low's and Very Low points. On Thursday we celebrated for Ana & Paulo's birthday -- good times, enough said. I haven't been that trashed in a while, so it was nice to let loose for a little bit. On Friday we threw a surprise birthday party, bbq'ed, cooked, baked and played poker. I spent the whole day saturday doing laundry at the parentals, and cleaning up my closet . Instead of having 6 dresses per hanger, it's all organized and neat! I can't believe I had to use over 70 hangers JUST for dresses... UGHk! After all that organizing the V's we're either going to go to : LA, Pomona, or West Covina. We were all pretty fuckin' lazy, but Heather was at Crazy Horse so I forced Ana to go with me hahaa. CRAZY HORSE = NO BUENOOOOOOOOO. I FUCKING HATE THAT PLACE. HATE HATE HATE! -- that's all i'm going to say. Sunday morning/ afternoon was pretty awful for me, i'm not going to go into details but let's just hope everything will be better. To get away from the animosity I hung out with Imee to keep myself sane, we went to get some sushi around the area and went to starbucks after.

What may seem like countless hours, Imee and I were able to bond tenfold. Even more so than how we were before. I can relate to Imee for many reasons, most especially with how the way we live our lives. We're both pretty independant, we like to live our lives that way we want them to, and if anyone was to get in the way of our "plans" then we would throw up the "FUCK YOU" sign, and send them home crying. I was admitting to Imee that even though i'm living by myself (with awesome roommates) and doing my own thing, my life has been becoming more and more repetitive, and i'm starting to get lonely. There's a void in me that I don't know what the hell, but it's becoming intensified. All the while i'm trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me she says :  there's a certain stage in your life when you realize you want someone to come home to. After she says that i'm basically flabbergasted, because it makes sense but at the same time, do I really need someone to fill in that void?

Then comes her story, i'm not going into any details about it but basically we're the same. we're scared. Scared of commitment, scared of being with one person because it could be inevitably be the death of us, scared of getting hurt, being trampled on, being lied and cheated on. Both of us we're never cheated on before ( from what we know) but this fear of "unknown" leads us to become reserved and timid. When Imee was talking to me about her problems, I gave her some advice but now I realize that I should take my own advice. I told her :  you can be scared all you want, but you'll never know what happens until you take that chance. and then after that I said:  he's already giving you 90%, all you have to do is give the 10.

where is my 90%?

until next time...

the oozing sexiness at Saddle Ranch.

xx.

MzJOWEE

i'm seriously suffering from a bad hangover -- i don't know if it's a hangover or if i'm still drunk, so while i recuperate with some ice cold water check out Ana and Paulo's Birthday @ Saddle Ranch pics posted in the Gallery. =)