c'est la vie.

MzJOWEE

“The real sin against life is to abuse and destroy beauty, even one's own -even more, one's own, for that has been put in our care and we are responsible for its well-being.”

My birthday weekend went exceptionally well. Once again, thank you for everyone who greeted me, who came to anyone of the three shenanigans... i'll be forever grateful. In continuation to my previous blog the Vagina's gave me a surprise dinner at boiling crab ( top 5 of my favorite restaurants - plus it was friday so we couldn't eat meat HAHA)

thanks for dinner!

Special thanks to :

• Vaginas - for setting everything up, helping me with my surprise, paying for my dinner, letting me use the apartment for drunken debauchery
• Leo - for bbqing some awesome food, being there for all 3 birthday shenanigans, and not getting mad when people used and abused your butt crack LOL
• ROOMIES - for cleaning up the stupid mess, tolerating my drunkeness, and for setting everything up

thanks for coming on tuesday to get me fucked up!

Saturday was end all/be all of bbq's, special thanks to those who came NON filipino time, i'm sorry if i looked janky as shit and i was getting ready with you guys already there =/ aahahah! I was drinking so much at a certain point I blacked out and I don't remember anything after that. I'm going to keep what I heard about that night under wraps, we'll leave everything to the imagination.

Currently I am very agitated, distraught and in disbelief.  My mind is currently not functioning correctly and I need to get away. For those of you who know of the events that happened, part of me wants to shoot him, part of me wants to just run away. I realized that you never really know who your friends are, no matter how long you've known them... and you can never be comfortable in trusting anyone but yourself. You can be friends with someone 8 or 9 years, but one event can make your blurred mind turn 180 and finally, you can see that person for who they really are OR who they came to be. I'm sorry that I had to to find this out so late in the "friendship." I'm sorry that I'm sorry that I'm not bitter or angry towards you. I'm sorry that my actions have caused you to have a negative opinion about me. I'm sorry that i'm not sorry, for never looking at you the same way ever again.

until next time...

xx.