c'est la vie.

“I've been getting rid of some clutter — anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life — and making room for things that feel happy to me. Because I get to make my life whatever I want it to be. I get to make the room feel however I want it to feel. I get to make the closet as full or as spacious as I want it. And, if I have more clutter to get rid of after Christmas, I'm not going to wait a year, or two or three to do it.”

 After the incident that shook me to my very core, I'm making a change. I'm going to erase my past that I don't need, save a little bit that's tucked into my external hard drive... and keep what's really important. At this point I realized that keeping things that's been around for a very long time (even if you thought there was some purpose to it  a long time ago) is never a good thing. There's no need to keep things that mattered to you a long time ago, when they serve no purpose for you now. Just know by reformatting my life, the old person that was once there is no longer present, the vivid and lively colors are now dull and uncompromising. Sometime's change isn't always good... and even though you won't like this change, you'll eventually get used to it because you have to.

so in the sense if you start realizing that:

• I don't want to hang out anymore - it's you not me.
• I don't answer phone calls, texts, or I don't want to talk - it's because you have been reformatted and erased.
• If you ask me to drink and I say NO, DO NOT force me, for I will turn into a rageful bitch.
• If I am a bitch towards you - you WILL get used to it sooner or later.
• If I don't answer to your little patronizing, condescending comments or criticisms it's because I DON'T CARE.
• I will NOT tolerate anything that has to do with ANYTHING from my past - consider me as a clean slate.
• I can and WILL leave you at a drop of a dime if you piss the shit out of me.
• If you don't like who I am NOW, then leave.