c'est la vie.

Hey you!

I may not be the clingy, dependent type of girlfriend, yet I still demand loyalty.

I am selfish this way because I give a lot..

Got it? I hope.

anaheim

Goodbye, two-oh-oh-eight.

Hello, two-oh-oh-nine.

Bring on the joy ride. :D

anaheim

The Next Move Principle :

The most important move of all moves is the "next move".

But of course.

poetfreak

i kinda miss someone.. just do not know who..

when i heard his voice yesterday.. i felt weird..

happy? just excited , maybe?

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poetfreak

i was on my first break and as usual i went to down to breathe some fresh air, smoke my cigarette, watch some people, think.. hayyyyyyy m always thinking..

and then i noticed  a couple of friends at coffee bean, they were drinking tea, only one person was talking and everybody was so trying hard to listen yet i think they were not there. they were just trying to be there, i mean, they were not listening to the person, they are not into a conversation either and it seem to me that they would rather not be there.. (note: the girl was talking about  IT stuff and most probably the other 6 people just cannot relate to it.. could be.. anyway..) =)

and then i realized something... we all have the freedom to decide but sometimes why do we stay on a place we do not even enjoy being there anymore? why do we stick to people we do not even love the company of? is it out of respect ? is it because we have nowhere to go and just want to settle to what we have even it means wasting precious time, something that we could never get a hold of again? is it because we are so afraid of being alone?

i'd bet there a lot of reasons.. but why not leave forget all about those reasons and go ahead figure out what is more important? if it is already boring, if it is already a cycle, if it is already becoming a routine, if it is not contributing to our growth as a person, then why not  pick up the pieces and leave? it is as easy as 123 or so i think.. yeah, yeah i know what ur thinking.. blah blah blah there other things to consider, people, people, their feelings, their reactions.. fine!! i remember what my mother used to tell me "why wait for tomorrow when you can do it today".. i guess it makes sense,.. will it hurt less if we do leave on the next few minutes, next hours, next days, next years? or are we just prolonging the agony and wasting precious time.

maybe, it could be a test of patience or endurance? mmmm could be fear of getting out of our comfort zones? yeah fear, yes fear, just fear, fear of anything.. that explains it. we are all afraid.. there are a few, the chosen few, they have mastered fear and they were able to stand out, detach from themselves, get out.

i want to be one of them, the courageous ones.. i will be..