c'est la vie.

MzJOWEE

 "Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."

Damn this week went by really quickly =) I’m ecstatic that it’s Friday once again, another weekend of debaucheries waiting to happen I took a couple days off of work to celebrate my coming of birth and I’m really REALLY REALLY thankful for all the calls, texts, comments, and greetings

I started off my birthday right by working the fuck out of myself only to find it went to waste because of the delicious sushi I ate with some of the soul sistas. It was finally great to hang out with Reginie Beanie again because I haven’t seen her in awhile. After countless all you can eat hours of sushi at Joe’s, Gine, Jane and I picked up Xavie and Jake then we chilled at the shoppes talking for a couple hours. After that I went to my Tatay’s house to eat some delicious food. It was really really sweet because they prepared a little shindig for me complete with Filipino spaghetti and Mango Cake. It’s always best to spend your birthday with the ones you love and I definitely love these people unconditionally. The WHOLE day I’ve been dreading the night to come because I know the countless times I forced people to drink bottles of alcohol on their birthday will bite me back in the ass. A group of 20 managed to come out to Barney’s Beanery on a Tuesday and I’m really grateful that they all came! The night was filled with Patron, Irish Car bomb(s), Snake bite ( really?), blow jobs, 2 warnings from the bartender, the squid and the octopus?... it was definitely a night that I do not remember at all… I hope everyone had fun! I know I did!

Come Wednesday I was really happy I didn’t wake up with a huge hangover but I definitely felt a little nauseated. Ana, Leo and I went to eat some bomb Filipino food then we dropped off Ana to work and rented a bunch of Filipino movies. Even though I’ve said countless times that the Filipino media needs to step up their game when it comes to cinematography and making predictable movies, when they do it right, it seriously becomes a mind blowing, gut wrenching, heart grabbing film. The rest of the day was spent being lethargic but it was a day well spent being lazy =)

 Tonight I’m going out with the Vagina’s to some place I don’t even know but it should be good =) On Saturday we’re having an all day bbq at the apartment (5 celebration’s in one week?! AWESOME!) being drunk and incoherent… so if your reading this, and you know me ( I’m talking to you, my family, who is within the vicinity of me or anyone else who knows me that HASN’T gotten the message) PLEASE COME to my apartment on Saturday, it will be exciting!  

Once again, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone for all the greetings and that came to my birthday shenanigans =)

Until next time…

xx.

MzJOWEE

“Well, birthdays are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each flicker of the candles on the cake, we know it's not to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy birthday? No such thing.” - Jerry Seinfeld

So, I pretty much hate myself for not being able to update this blog religiously. Either work has been becoming so hectic that I don’t have time (but for some reason I still have time to chat? LOL), or I just haven’t found any inspiration to write anymore. It’s been a really long time since I’ve been to a spoken word and I’m starting to really miss it =(. Work has been killing me lately because there’s so much to do (I’m not going to bore you on budgets and management reports) but I’ve been nonstop working on something. Quick Updates: I have accumulated 4 tattoo's on my body ( all on my arms, I still need to take a pic of the other two!) ; Single's crew is NOW non existent, if there are questions please ask me; I am going to florida in Sexy September ( Be ready bitches) and I am currently looking for a job in Makati, Philippines. Tentative Date of Departure: January 2010.

The weeks have been traveling by quickly but it seems like everything has become monotonous. I finally received the will power to work out at least 5 times a week. This week is starting week four and I’ve noticed some changes with myself. Not as much as I’d want to, but it’s a work in progress. Lesson of the Day: I could never quit ANYTHING cold turkey. Despite my efforts of giving up rice and sweets, I realized I can’t stop it completely (since I have the BIGGEST sweet tooth) and that I would have to stop eating them progressively. One of the biggest things that I need to give up completely is alcohol but it won’t let me quit. “Why can’t I quit you?”  Being a college graduate with the regular 9-5 job, it’s hard to restrain yourself from popping a cold beer in front of the TV when you want to relax.

Speaking of alcohol I am turning 23 and I am not at all enthused about it. Sans the people that I love, + the money from my tatay + dinner with my family + the alcohol, I don’t feel accomplished enough to be 23 and STILL haven’t done most of the things I’ve wanted to do. Even though I’ve made a lot of accomplishments throughout the years, I still feel inferior to the society I’ve put my standards upon. I know there’s more to myself that I can undertake I just have to put my mind to it.

Have you ever stopped to look at your life and said “Damn, I should have done this.” Not only until recently I’ve discovered the beauty of Carpe Diem, because I look back at it, and there are definitely things that I could have done differently. I mean, I know about the whole “I have no regrets, because that’s what made me the person I am today” but I think that’s complete bullshit. We all have regrets; we all could have done things differently. Doesn’t matter if your life would have turned better or even more fucked up, but truthfully we all have some demons we should have or wanted to cast away. It’s how you deal with it after that makes you the person you are, whether you want to take that leap of faith or not. So everyone say it with me, Carpe Diem.

I know it, this blog is a bit disdainful because I’m usually pretty chippy and delightful. To not get you worried I’m still happy as fuck, I still look at positivity, and I still love the idea of love.  I was told to truly reflect because it’s my birthday and here it is : Life Goes On, Carpe Diem.

Until next time…

believe in extraordinary results.

xx.

LONG OVERDUE PICTURES POSTED IN GALLERY

“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.”

some say I don't blog often enough anymore...

some say I need to write more to pass the(ir) time...

maybe it's because i haven't felt inspired to do something.

is my life mundane? stagnant? docile?

i need to pick things up, i need to get a hobby...

the 9-5, work out 5-7, drinking 8-? is becoming elusive

maybe it's time to pick up my things and leave.

 xx.

MzJOWEE

“If you once forfeit the confidence of your fellow citizens, you can never regain their respect and esteem. It is true that you may fool all of the people some of the time; you can even fool some of the people all of the time; but you can't fool all of the people all of the time.” - Abraham Lincoln

When breaking bad habits, the phrase “quitting cold turkey” has been said very habitually. Examples would be smoking, drinking, and gambling but have you ever phrased that quote towards another person? I know quitting cold turkey towards another individual may seem brash, but has someone ever pissed you off SO MUCH that you don’t even want to give them the respect to tell them WHY you’re quitting them in the first place? One of my BIGGEST pet peeves is when I wholeheartedly try to take care of a “friend” by inviting them to hang out, introducing them to all of my friends, offering my apartment for a place to chill, food that I cook to eat on the table, yet they STILL manage to flake out, do shit behind my back, and neglect me when it’s my turn for a helping hand.

Why do the nice one’s always get taken advantage of? I admit I can be pretty feisty when someone has pushed my buttons repeatedly but other than that it’s smooth sailing. Do I have to be a BITCH again to get treated with some respect? Don’t think that I don’t notice the sneaky things you do, the little lies you tell, and the really RUDE and INCONSIDERATE actions you’ve been doing. If you need a BITCH, then you have one right here.

Wooooooosah.

MzJOWEE

“I wanted to convince you that you must learn to make every act count, since you are going to be here for only a short while, in fact, too short for witnessing all the marvels of it.”

How is it possible that in a span of 3 days I only had 5 hours worth of sleep? Being the human trait version of Snorlax (the pokemon, if you forgot!), I usually get 8-9 hours of sleep back in the day (when I used to live at home). DAMN!

 This week went by strangely fast. My cousin’s grandfather passed away most recently so Thursday night I was able to go to his viewing. RIP Tatay Poncho. During the viewing I was talking to my cousin and aunt (my dad’s sister) and I finally had the courage to tell her about my tattoo. After seeing it she got a little bit teary-eyed and very nostalgic then said “At least you can remember her everyday.” After the viewing the roomie’s headed to BJ’s in Brea to celebrate Vinz’s birthday and I must say it was a breath of fresh air seeing a lot of the old school together. I suddenly became a bit nostalgic because of how much we used to hang out with each other before. Lately I’ve been hanging out with a different crowd and even though I love them to death, it’s always nice to go back to the past. As usual I bought Vinz a fourhorsemen and got him fucked up because everyone else kept buying him drinks. Quotes such as “gator dick,” “your tits taste better than the pazookie,” and “ I’m going to call my girlfriend to tell her to suck my dick” made the night memorable hahahaha!

damn, look at this sexy man

Friday night the pseudo-singles crew ( pseudo because Jay now has a girlfriend, Ciery is in the process of getting a boyfriend, Jake is still ditching me for sex, and I’m stuck with my 50 dogs) went to El Senor for this once a month event and this shit was basically a REUNION! I was beyond fucked up (more fucked up than usual) because the last meal I had was at 2 and somehow I ended up taking 2 shots of patron, 1 cactus cooler, 2 corona’s, 2 jager bombs, some cranberry vodka, and a glass of hen and coke. ( WTF? I KNOW!) Jane and Duday came out to play and honestly after my 2^nd shot of patron I said goodnight to everyone that I loved and everything became really hazy. All I can remember was that I double fisted 2 corona’s for a good portion of the night and then I ended with nothing. THEN I ended with another corona and a hen and coke then that disappeared too. A lot of people grabbed my ass that night for some damn reason and I vaguely remember Duday asking me to give her a lap dance. Hahahah, good times. I ended up knocking out around 4am.

the ONLY picture I took that night! ( me and Joey!)

To my dismay I was able to wake up really early to go to the gym with roomie even though I needed a drink of water every 5 minutes. I didn’t wake up with a bad hangover but I was still a bit dizzy. After that roomie and I had some Filipino food, dropped her off to work and picked up Leo. Goal for Saturday was to get my tattoo then go thrift store shopping but I ended up being lazy so we just went thrift store shopping instead. I was able to get 2 dresses, a skirt, and 2 shirts for less than 20 bucks. =) After I dropped off Leo, and RIGHT when I get home Imee’s at the door so off we go to get some Korean BBQ . After our 3 hour dinner and hilarious talks we went to Jane’s to pick her and Xavi up for dessert. It’s always fun hanging out with the Soul Sistas and even though I don’t see them on a daily basis like I used to, seeing them once or twice a week is still good. Came home around 11, Geoff and Fallon came over because we were supposed to go to a party but I ended being SUPER lazy so we just watched movies and I ended up sleeping around 4:30. =(

I just realized I have a very noticeable mullet hahaha

I woke up SUPER SUPER SUPER early to meet up with Ateh Jan to go to the Rose Bowl! I love that place, it was a humongous flea market event so I was able to look at vintage accessories, furniture, shoes and clothing. I met JP’s dog Dodger (half German shepherd half something else) and he was SO BIG! If he we’re to stand up he would be taller than me… dang! ( yes Jenna, BIGGER THAN SUSHI!) Came home around 7, so roomie and I watched 300, THEN she clogged the damn toilet so I had to go to Wal-Mart at 12am ahahahahh!

  Dodger! so cute!

I haven’t cooked Filipino food in awhile. Pinkabet tonight! YUM!

 [EDIT]for all the singles out there:

xx.